untitled procrastination (but still thankful)

Today I am thankful for the newspaper. I haven’t read a real paper-y newspaper in years. It was the best. I got caught up on current affairs and all the viruses and Brexit. Just the best.

I am thankful that even though I’m procrastinating on my next part of the story to Myrtle’s story, I am writing something. It doesn’t take as much brain power but there are words and that’s almost the same thing.

I am thankful for the school I went to today. Something very  sad happened yesterday which affected the students and staff. I wasn’t there when it happened and I only saw things from the outside looking in but I was so impressed with how they carried on and stuck together. As much as I hate tragedies, I do appreciate the way they bring people together. You have to put a way all the petty stuff and focus on the things that matter… loving each other.

I taught my ex’s kids this week. I wasn’t sure they’d recognize me but I think they did. We didn’t say it out right (“Remember that time we watched The Incredibles 2 together?”). That would be awkward. We just gave each other a nod of “I see you.” And later his youngest apologized for being rude to me during class. I don’t know why it filled my heart but it did and I was very thankful by the end of the day.

Earlier this week, I was called into Seven Stones school as a sub. I watched the kinders get chased around by this massive ball/boulder that was guided by a teacher or two. The only goal of the game is to run kinders over. And they legit want you to run them over. They’re like, Come get me!! Nah nah nah nah naaaaaah! And so it’s a pretty satisfying game to play, for kids and teachers alike.

I’m thankful God is sovereign and faithful. I don’t understand everything but I’m comforted that He does.

I received a small scholarship to get some counseling. I started to do the homework and it’s been so helpful. Even when it’s hard and draining, I know it’s going to be worth it in the long run. 

I’m taking a break from FB and Instagram. It’s made a huge difference. I feel much better without it and can get more done. I’m thankful for time away from social media.

I’m thankful for new days and growth. I’m thankful for the kids I teach, for their maturity and how they hold me accountable. I’m thankful for the book I’m reading about the Indian Act because I didn’t understand all the intricacies of it. Not that I fully understand it now but the books helps a bit.

I’m thankful for friends, for light conversation, for a strong glass of wine at the pub. For a bath, for youtube videos with inspirational self help videos.