made myself write something. this is all I could come up with.

  • I know I need to finish the story but I just don’t waaaaaaannaaa.
  • You guys, I have been procrastinating on the next part of the story for almost a month. Aaaaaaaaaagggghhhh.
  • To be fair, I did a couple reviews and wrote epitaph poetry. None of those things furthered the plot but you know, I kinda meditated on it and that counts.
  • This always happens in every project I’ve ever done. I’m really good at starting it but then I get tired and hit a slump halfway through. Blargh.
  • But I’m going to do it.
  • I feel like if I write enough lists that are filled with nothing then maybe I’ll finally get tired of listening to myself and then I’ll have no other choice but to finish the story.
  • Valentine’s day is coming up. I used to love Valentine’s Day when I was a kid. I still do in many ways but this year not so much. Anyway, I think I loved it because Mom turned it into a special day. She’d buy my sister and I a little stuffy or lip balm or our favourite chocolate. It wasn’t big but she always made me feel loved. I’m only moderately dreading it this year as a single but my action plan is to stay as busy as possible so I don’t have time to think too hard about it. The good news is I have two get-togethers with friends that Friday and I’m looking forward to both. I also bought this huge canvas on sale at JYSK over the Christmas holidays. Before I had plans, I was saving that canvas for Valentines Day. But now I get to save it as a project over Reading Week.
  • I don’t know why I’m writing this as a list. I tried to switch it into paragraph form but the button isnt working. So I’m just rolling with it now.
  • Guess we’re stuck with a list.
  • Oh man you guys, if I had a dollar for every time I got distracted I could buy a full set of lashes and hair extensions tomorrow. And then replace them the next day.
  • Also, does anyone else feel like 2020 is the year of humility? ‘Cuz I’m getting humbled all over the place. I mean, it’s good because I can grow and get better but it’s certainly no fun at the time.
  • I think I’m just going to like push through it this week and next and say that by Sunday, February 23 I WILL FINISH THE STORY OF MYRTLE/ESTHER.
  • There. I said it.
  • Now I just need to do it.
  • The good news is I wrote something today and that is a good thing. The quality wasn’t the best and it’s just a streamline of thoughts but I wrote something. And that’s half the battle.