The Company I Keep

I am thankful for:

A really good night’s sleep. Uninterrupted, deep and long.

I keep cutting my hair. I had a nice haircut a couple weeks ago but it only looked good if I straightened it and that’s more work than I’m willing to do. So I cut again and then it was nice but floofy. So I rocked the floofy style for awhile but then I was like, “I need to thin this out and try to get the hair off my neck.” So I did that and it looked good but a little in even so I went to a hair stylist and came out looking a bit like the child of a squire who made love to a woman with a short French bob. Whatever. It’ll grow out and I’ll be fine. At least it’s even. I’m thankful for that.

Soooooooo I’ve definitely been winging my IG posts for The Piper Project. Totally not following my own advice. But at least I’m writing. That’s gotta mean something right? And I’ve been writing a play in my Playwrighting class. Maybe it’s a lame first draft but I’m writing! I’m thankful for time to write and the challenge of building a play.

I deactivated my personal FB page. My brain’s been on overload and FB is kind of a noisy place so I decided to deactivate to do some self care.  I guess I’m thankful for a couple things: 1) some peace and quiet, and; 2) i’m not famous. Social media is too much for me even as a lil ol’ blogger. Being famous would be my own personal form of hell. I think many introverts feel this way.

For great conversation and debates about Christianity. I think the reason I liked it so much is because we listened to each other and though we disagreed, we still had respect for the other person’s point of view. She wasn’t attacking me and I hope I didn’t attack her but we hit topics that are unpopular and controversial like homosexuality and hell. At the end of the convo, my friend mentioned something about making my brain work too hard. But I loved it! I felt like my faith was more so fueled than anything. I’m thankful for that. I’m also thankful because she heard me out. Some people don’t even give me the chance to defend what I believe. She did.

I’m thankful that whoever was pranking me by sending messages on IG stopped. I hope they don’t take this note of thankfulness as a reason to start back up again. Because I’m thankful for the quiet.

I’m thankful for drives out to my aunt’s and uncle’s farm. For nice visits with sweating diet cokes beneath the shade. For great conversation while watching the leaves of the shelter belt flutter. How the Oriole birds sang near the trees they implanted from the lake years ago. For the drive home and the oldies that crackled on an AM radio station.

I’m thankful for olive leaf extract and probiotics to help with tummy problems.

I’m thankful for bed and my fan. I’m thankful for the rain and open windows to cool my apartment. I’m thankful for friends who help me rationalize and make sense of things that don’t make sense. It helps me see things from other people’s perspective and gets me outta my head.

I’m thankful to experience church with friends at their house. To sing together and talk about the sermon.

I’ve screwed up a lot these past couple weeks. Though I can see why I did those things, it still doesn’t make it right. I’m thankful for grace and mercy. Mercy from Jesus that I don’t deserve and the mercy from friends and family who are so very, very patient with me. I am blessed by the company I keep.