Scattered Blessings

Things I’m thankful for:

I realized a couple days after I posted my last list that I misused the word ‘palpable.’ (Ei. “… toning down ‘The Jesus’ to be more palpable to others…”) I meant to say, “palatable” but the mistake made me laugh. I was trying so hard to be smart and articulate! So much for that!

I have good principals and vice principals who have mentored me through some difficult situations. Those situations aren’t over yet but I’m grateful for the admin’s support and mentorship. They have modeled humility, character and self-discipline in situations that should/would/could bring out the worst in others. It’s rare in my world to find this kind of maturity and I appreciate it so much when I find it.

My church has started to support a ministry called, Careportal, which links churches with families, especially kids in foster care. It allows us to help fill needs and offer support. I’m so grateful that I get to be apart of it and help get it rolling. It’s still new in Regina but I’m praying there will be more opportunities soon.

I put on makeup today because we’re doing virtual learning and I don’t have to wear a mask. At first, I thought I looked okay and more like “myself.” But after awhile I thought I looked yellow and gross. So I washed it all off, moisturized and felt better. I’ve still got scarring and redness. When I washed everything off today, I felt so much better. Which is, like, whoa. I never say that. Sometimes I put on a bit of concealer or powder to help with the acne scars and redness but not as often or as much as I used to. This is the first time I’ve been able to say I prefer myself with less makeup. I’m grateful for that moment.

Healing skin. Healing heart.

I finished the book of Numbers in the bible. Here are my takeaways:

God appreciates accountants and financial advisors. I do, too. Especially around tax time.

King Og refuses to let Moses and the Israelites pass through their territory, even though Moses told them they wouldn’t take anything or stop for water. They just need to get through the territory to get to the Promised Land. But King Og refused and attacked the Israelites when they least expected it. But the Israelites fought back against their enemies and won. They occupied the land for awhile before moving on (Numbers 21:24). They continued to overcome and conquer each of the cities. King Og wasn’t about to give up and tried to attack them again. The Lord told Moses to not be afraid. He basically gave Moses the permission to fight. This means something to me because I often crumple in the face of opposition or intimidation. But God doesn’t allow the Israelites to cower. He tells them to face it and He will give them victory. That gave me a lot of courage.

In Numbers 22-24, there’s whole other storyline that takes place where the King of Moab is intimidated by the Israelites and decides the best way to fight back is to hire Balaam to curse his enemies (which is totally true of human nature. If people think they can’t win against you, they will tear down your reputation with gossip and slander. You don’t need a prophet to do damage like that. We’re all capable of it). The Israelites and Moses don’t have a talking part. It’s sort of like another version of events but from the enemies point of view. Which is so unique and bizarre. Why have the enemies version of events in a story about God and His people? I’m still trying to figure out how Balaam, a prophet, got involved with the enemies in the first place. I don’t think he’s an Israelite but maybe he belongs to one of the 12 tribes… I don’t know. Probably over thinking it but the story is so different and out of the blue! Anyway, throughout the story, you see God working behind the scenes in the narrative of the Israelites’ enemies. How He protects them and positions the right people at the right time to bless His people rather than curse. Balaam describes God as this wild ox fighting for His people. It’s one of my favourite descriptions of God. Wild. Territorial. Bad-ass. It’s hard to imagine He’s these things when you’re in the heat of a difficult situation but reading a story like this helps me walk by faith and not by sight.

When the Israelites finally get to the Promised Land, God establishes a couple places called Cities of Refuge. It’s mostly for refugees or foreigners who are living in the Promised Land permanently or temporarily. In addition to this, it’s also a place where people who accidentally kill someone can go if they need to get away from the relative who wants revenge for the death of their family member. You can stay there till the High Priest dies and then you can go back to your home city. Which is kind of weird. Wouldn’t you want to wait till the person who wants revenge dies? That seems more logical. I’ll have to research that and figure out why. Anyway, I love this passage about God’s law because even in situations where errors are made, God commands that the public rule in favour of the person who made the mistake. Not the one who wants revenge. I was so encouraged by that because I make mistakes all the time. God is still merciful and protects people who make mistakes.

I’m so grateful for what I have right now. To have food in my belly. To have an apartment. To have running water. To have electricity and heat. To have a family. To have technology. To have books. To have windows where the sun can come in. To have clean drinking water… There’s so much to be thankful for. At any point, I could lose it. Satan could throw me back into poverty and God, in spite of all His powerfulness, could let it happen. If that day comes sooner rather than later, I’d like to be able to say that I didn’t take all that I have now for granted. My earnest prayer is that I’ll be able to say that Jesus is enough for me and I trust Him even through this. I don’t know how I’ll be able to say it yet truthfully yet but will continue to pray for that kind of courage and faith.

A friend suggested (without realizing it) a new name for my blog. I need to think about it but like the possibilities. More on that later 😉

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